Oh my goodness. When it rains, it pours. I had been thinking lately how boring work was. How I wasn't getting anything done. Couldn't get motivated. Nothing fun to work on. I had days and days of no meetings, just me staring at my screen until it was time to go home. Then I'd go home and just stare at the screen some more. Nothing to do, no one to see, except for games on Wednesdays and living for the weekend.
Well good Lord has that changed. I'm typing this on my lunchhour, my one break between 6 straight hours of meetings today. My whole week has been/will be like this (though today is by far the worst). Meetings back to back. Often in different buildings. And I have work to get done for said meetings between them. Folks are starting to get annoyed that they can't schedule a meeting with me. Not my fault! Take a number!
This work stress would be bad enough, but my social schedule has also expanded beyond its waistline and I'm feeling stressed at home as well. Every night of the week I have something fun and wonderful to do. I love it. But I'm feeling pressure from "back burner things" - you know, little things like paying the freakin' rent - that also need to get done and I don't know when or where to fit them in.
Last night I did manage to get all my bills paid. And my checkbook is updated, even if it isn't balanced (it hasn't been balanced since I moved out in April - the shame!) And I was able to clean the litter box before work this morning. So I'm feeling a bit more in control of the domestic domain. Okay, a LOT better. But there's still a lot to do. I need freakin' groceries and don't know when I'll have time to get my bananas. GAH! I want my bananas!
I'm also not sleeping well. And I know it's because of the stress. I tried going to bed around 10:30 last night, but I tossed and turned for quite awhile. Was having those damn racing thoughts again. And the dryer and washer were SO LOUD. Was also up in the middle of the night. Again. At least Smudge wasn't chewing my fingers all night or dancing on the bedspread like he had been doing.
I need to stop. I need to breathe. I need to spend some time on my mediation cushion. I need to put things in perspective. I can't wait until the weekend is here. But I can't wait for the weekend - I need to stop before then.
