E and I have decided to join Weight Watchers together. Both of us are unhappy with the way we feel and how we look. We're going to do the program online and go to meetings. There is a Thursday night meeting in Sunnyvale that we are going to go to. That way I can take the train down and we can go to our meeting together. This will also help with my feeling that we need to connect more during the week. And it will help make sure that we both keep going to the meetings. It should be good. We are also going to try to cook together on the weekends so we have healthy lunches and dinners through the week.
I'm feeling nervous about joining again though. I don't want to fail again. I know it's not a black and white, fail or win type of thing. Even if I just loose 10 pounds that is a big success and would be really good for me, health-wise.
I don't have the excuses that I've been using for the past 5 months anymore. I'm settled into the job. The divorce is history. I've moved, so the commute is now a managable length. I need to just do it (to coin a phrase). There's no reason why I should not be eating real meals. I just haven't been. I've been lazy.
Well, now is the time to change that. I know I will feel better if I do. Both physically and with the feeling that I am controlling food, not the other way around.
