Fucking Ridiculous!

Unbelieveable. As many of you dear readers know, I don't sleep well. I haven't slept well in years. I'm not talking a bit of stress and I can't fall asleep for awhile. Or some days I wake up too early. I'm talking about every single fucking night, I don't sleep. I fall asleep, wake up around 1 and then toss and turn, stuck between awake and asleep until 6ish. On the bad days I'm wide awake from 1 AM on. And then the alarm goes off at 7:15. I have been massively sleep deprived for at least the past 3 years, if not longer.

I AM SICK OF THIS!

In January I called the Stanford Sleep Clinic to make an appointment to see one of their sleep doctors. The soonest appointment I could get was April 7th. The luck of the gods was with me, because I had my sleep study the following week, on April 13 (photos to prove it). My follow-up appointment was scheduled for July 5. Yes, more than 2 fucking months AFTER the study before I can learn the results.

In those 2+ months my health insurance has changed 3 times. The newest coverage starts tomorrow, July 1, and it's with Kaiser. Oh aren't I lucky. Which means, they won't cover me if I go to the Stanford doctor without an accepted continuation of coverage form. Which takes 72 hours to process. And it's a holiday weekend.

So... my options are to:
A) Go to the appointment and pay the $400 to see the doctor myself.
B) Keep the appointment and hope I get clearance to go beforehand.
C) Keep the appointment and find out just beforehand that it won't be covered and then be charged a cancelation fee by Stanford.
D) Cancel the appointment and start all over again with the Kaiser sleep clinic at somepoint.
E) Reschedule the appointment, assuming that I'll get the continuation of coverage at somepoint, and if not, have plenty of time to cancel without penality and start over with the Kaiser sleep clinic.

I chose to do E. Can you guess when my appointment has been rescheduled for? October 20, 2005. That will be 6 months AFTER the study. Six months that I have been waiting to hear why I can't sleep.

Oh, and yes. I'm sure the stress over all this will do wonders for my sleeping tonight. Maybe tonight I'll be lucky enough to toss and turn for a few hours before falling into my fitful, restless slumber.