The not-sleeping thing has taken a turn for the worst the past few days. I'm finding that I'm still not tired at 10:30 at night (when at the beginning of the month I could barely stay up past 8:30), and want to keep reading/watching TV/futzing on the computer doing whatever rather than go to sleep. I think this might be because I know that I'll spend another hour or so just lying there wondering when I'll fall asleep already. It's now right? How about now? Am I asleep yet?
Once I do fall asleep I don't stay that way for long. I know I am sleeping, because I'm having weird and upsetting stress dreams. Last night I dreamed that I had a screaming match with E's mom. But I'm caught in that nether-region of not asleep, not awake, I can't tell if I'm dreaming or just thinking state.
It's exhausting.
I saw a sleep doctor last week and he's sending me for another sleep study. More fun with electrodes! Hopefully I'll hear about that appointment soon. He said that I can even go down there to see the results and they will show me all the graphs and charts and images of my brain waves and stuff. Neat-O! I can't wait.
