September 2004 Archives
'Tis Good
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You know, it is just amazing how much life/your outlook on life can change in a short period of time. I'm not talking mood swings. It's broader than that. It's the combination of stressful activites passing (Connect, certification dives - as fun as they were, it was still stressful), work deadlines passing, and a couple of nights of fairly good sleep. I was such a ball of stress, angst, and just all around black negative energy 1.5 weeks ago. I felt just horrible. The release started with all the talking with my Safe People. The hills didn't seem quite asBanned Book Week Sept 26-Oct 2
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I'm enjoying ripping my CDs so I can load them onto my new iPod. The process is surprisingly quick and amazingly simple. I have yet to get into the whole digital music scene because I had this preconception that it was a hassle. I needed special software. It would take a long time. Blah Blah. Well, I don't know where it was that I got that idea. iTunes makes it SO easy. One of the things that I'm really enjoying is the metadata that iTunes pulls down for all of the songs and albums, specifically the "genre." I'm not quiteWhat a Week
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My goodness. What a crazy week this has been. It's so good to be home, to have slept in my own bed. To be back with my cats (I can't believe how much Smudgie has grown - he's HUGE!) The Dive I am now a certified diver. Yay! We did four dives, last Saturday and Sunday at Breakwater in Monterey Bay. It was fun. Our visibility was about 15 feet on Saturday and more like 8 feet on Sunday. The water was cold, but I only really felt it when we were sitting on the bottom practicing our skills. IGone Divin'
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I'm headed to Monterey this weekend for my PADI Open Water Scuba Certification dives. I'm really excited about it. I spent all last weekend in the classroom and pool taking the tests and quizzes and practicing the skills. I think I did pretty well. It was a bit unnerving at first, when you first put your face underwater and breathe. But I just remembered that I could snorkle, and this was no different (okay, I know it is different, but in the basic face-in-water-still-breathing-way it's the same). I took deep, slow breaths and I was fine. The only skill IWell Slap My Fro
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
I had a really pleasant surprise at weigh-in tonight. I lost another 0.2 pounds. I don't really see how I lost anything this week, given what I was eating. Cookies for dinner for more than 1/2 the week. I'm guessing that TOM starting (which seems to quickly deflate any bloat) was mostly involved. It was a very nice surprise though. I'm certainly not going to knock it. I spent all afternoon running around and doing errands. By the time I got home at 7, I was starving. And that was after I had saved my dried apple pieces to eatMeme from LiveJournal
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INSTRUCTIONS: 1. Copy this whole list into your journal. 2. Bold/underline the things that are true about you. 3. Whatever you don't bold/underline is false. # 01. I miss someone right now. # 02. I don't watch much TV these days. # 03. I love olives # 04. I love sleeping when i can get to sleep # 05. I own lots of books # 06. I wear glasses or contact lenses, but not both at the same time # 07. I love to play video games # 09. I've watched porn # 11. I have been the psycho-ex inBetter
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I went home from work early yesterday. For once, it wasn't an agonizing decision. I was tired. I was frazzled. I was crying. I was at the end of my rope. At my wit's end. So I went home. I crawled into bed, my cats joined me, and we all took a nice long nap. I felt better when I woke up. The physical pain of being awake was gone. I also spent a large amount of time last night talking about my feelings. I talked a lot. With three different people. My three Safest People. My Safe People are"Eat me.... EAT ME!"
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
Okay... this is really difficult. Someone ordered Mexican food for a meeting today and there are big trays of tortillas, rice, refried beans, and cheese and sour cream sitting out in the pantry area of our office. AND Sandi changed the selection in her TNT fundraising candy box so she's got KitKats in there and White Reeses Peanut Butter Cups (I've never heard or such a thing. I love white chocolate!). And of course the Twix. I even saw a 3 Musketeers. Not that I was looking closely or anything. Nope, not me. It's calling to me. It was SOPart of something bigger
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Last night I went to the candlelight vigil for the lost Americans in Iraq. There were about 20 of us, and we lined up on the sidewalk at the end of Main Street. It was a bit strange. No one really spoke. We just lighted our candles in silence and stood there for about 45 minutes. We had one woman slow down her car, read the signs that some people had, and say "Really nice, thanks." That was kind of neat. Otherwise some folks slowed down and looked at us. But a vast majority just breezed right by. I feelCandlelight Vigils for a Thousand Fallen Soldiers
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With deep sadness and anger we mark the tragic milestone of the death of over one thousand patriotic Americans in Iraq. We also mourn the unnecessary loss of many thousands of Iraqi lives. They have all suffered the fatal wounds of battle and the failure of their leaders. Join members of your community in honoring this tragic loss at a candlelight vigil this Thursday, September 9 at 8:00 PM. You can find a vigil nearby at action.moveon.org/vigil/. Vigils are being held across the country in literally thousands of neighborhoods, but if you do not find one close by, please organizeSomething Beautiful
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The most wonderful thing happened to me this morning. I woke up this morning and I didn't feel more tired then when I had gone to bed. That means I slept! *happy dance* It's unfortunately been too long since that has happened. But it did happen. And it's something to rejoice. Now, if we can just get it to happen two nights in a row...Actually, It's Not Bad
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
Okay, okay, so I know I'm not suppose to be obsessing about the whole "weight loss" thing, and how many pounds so far and all of that. But. So far I've lost 6 pounds in 1 month. They say weight loss should average 1-2 pounds per week. So... with 6 pounds in 4 weeks, that's right in the average. If I were to average 6 pounds a month, I'd still be to goal in less than a year. That's not bad at all. Pretty darn good actually. Okay... I'm feeling less like a failure about this now. And gee... soProgress is not Pounds
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
Progress comes in many different shapes and sizes. The scale is just one of many measures. But it's not the only one. I need to focus on all the areas that are improving in my life. It's unhelpful to focus on just one measure. And it's unrealistic to demand improvement on that measure all the time. Sometimes progress is in spirals. Sometimes we need to take longer to "get ready," to sit in a holding pattern, to check and recheck to make sure our ducks are in a row before we leap to the next stage. Babies walk when theyWhat dreams may come
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I just remembered a dream that I had last night. My dreams have been strange lately. Just little snippets and in the morning I hardly remember them, or if I do I'm never sure if they were dreams or thoughts or actually happened. They aren't nearly as colorful and movie quality since I've switched to a new anti-depressant. Which is a bit disappointing because it was neat to go into an Academy Award winner every night. Anyway, in this dream I was back at the Rowland Institute for Science, where I used to work in the library. When I workedYawn
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How do you explain to a four month old, who speaks another language (cat), that it is not acceptable to play mousie in mommy's bed at 3 o'clock in the morning? I guess I should just be thankful that it wasn't a real mouse. *yawn*What is Wrong with Me?
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
Ugh! I can't believe my eating lately. It has been completely unmindful. I haven't been logging points. Haven't been eating fruits and veggies. I went out for Mexican last night (the beans and cheese were SOOOOOOOOOO yummy) and then proceeded to come home and eat all of the WW frozen desserts that I had in the house (only had 2 servings at that point, but still). Today I packed a healthy lunch, in an effort to get back on track. But I had forgotten that they were ordering pizza for our working session today. Again, the cheese was SOOOOOOOOOOOO good.So very tired
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I'm so tired today. I barely dragged myself out of bed in time to get to work by 9. My eyelids are so heavy. I just want to curl up and take a nap. Think anyone would notice if I crawled under my desk for a hour? I need to make sure that I'm getting to bed at a reasonable hour. None of this staying up until 1 am stuff. The problem is that I haven't been tired until later. I went to bed at 9 last night, but was up until 10 reading. And it still took me awhileThis won't hurt a bit
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I just got back from donating platelets. They did a one arm thing this time, rather than use one arm to draw the blood and the other to return. This one had different tubes and it alternated push and pull throughout the whole 2 hours. I'm so glad they finally got it to work. The last two times I've tried to donate they can't get the vein in my return arm and they haven't been able to do the donation. And even though the one arm did more, it doesn't hurt as much as I remember. Yay. I feel good.So much for the points allowance
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
Went to Maria's TNT Fundraising party today. All she had to eat was rice, refried beans, and cake. So that's what I had. I had more than I intended to have. The beans and rice tasted SOOOOOOOO good. The idea of the cake was better than the cake itself though. It was too sicky sweet. Of course, that didn't stop me from snarfing down the whole thing. I felt so over-stuffed afterwards. Just icky through and through. Then most of this evening I've wanted to eat more. And not the 3 servings of 0-point veggies that I should eat. ButHe's Growing!
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Smudge went to the vet this morning. He needed a rabies shot and I wanted to make sure that he's on the normal kitten growth curve. My little boy is up to 3 pounds 13 ounces. 3 pounds 13 ounces! Needless to say the vet was very happy with his progress. It was a different doctor than he's seen before, but she was still pleased. He doesn't have to go back until next year (it's only a 1-year rabies). She said he should be 9 pounds by then (or more!). My little baby is growing up so fast! Before IBinge
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
Ugh. Why do it do it to myself? Why? Last night for dinner I had about 5 Trader Joe's oatmeal raisin cookies and a whole mini-bag of Quaker Rice Chippie-thingies. I estimated the damage at 22 points (my target for the day is 28). And this is AFTER all the cookies I had at tea time on Friday. Ugh. I felt so sick afterwards. Why did I do it? I was hungry enough that I wanted to eat, but not hungry enough to eat a full meal (damn tea time). Once I started I wanted the flavor and the textureIt's a Loss
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
Well, the .6 that I gained last week came off this week. Yay! I'm headed back in the right direction. I was hoping for more - I felt like there should have been more. My bathroom scale had me down a full 1 (granted, it only measures in 1/2 pound increments). But I've been feeling smaller around the middle. I'm trying to feel good about this week's loss. The negative part of me keeps on insisting on turning this positive into something bad. It keeps saying that I essentially haven't made any progress over the past 3 weeks. That ITwo Lumps
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I found an amusing online cat comic this morning. It's called Two Lumps: The Adventures of Ebenezer and Snooch. I suggest going back to the first strip and watching them in order. There aren't that many and it's very funny.Nail on the Head
Posted by Chiara | Category weight
I found this on the website of a fellow WW VeggieBoarder. She found it on a WW message board awhile ago. While not everything here rings true for me, a lot of it does. And it certainly adds a perspective/ looks at the issues from a different angle. And that is a good thing. If losing weight is really important, why wouldn’t I put every effort into achieving it? Why wouldn’t I base every decision on achieving this goal? Why would I justify decisions that don’t support my goal? How do I justify decisions that don’t support the goal? I!!STRESSED!!
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Oh my goodness. When it rains, it pours. I had been thinking lately how boring work was. How I wasn't getting anything done. Couldn't get motivated. Nothing fun to work on. I had days and days of no meetings, just me staring at my screen until it was time to go home. Then I'd go home and just stare at the screen some more. Nothing to do, no one to see, except for games on Wednesdays and living for the weekend. Well good Lord has that changed. I'm typing this on my lunchhour, my one break between 6 straight hoursMonthly Archives
